little reminders

It is Thursday, 11:56pm and I am overwhelmed with new energy that I cannot even begin to comprehend. We are here.

I have been "awake" for 2 years but JUST NOW, in this moment of time, is where I truly feel like my eyes are open (Awareness). Things are getting easier to navigate, I'm connecting to like-minded individuals, & life has been so much fun. To be completely honest, I'm asking myself "how can life get any better than this?". Now don't get me wrong...I have a lot to take care of, I'm going through a lot emotionally & financially, and I am nowhere near perfect (who wants to be perfect?), but here I am making the most of everything I have. I can say that I've been living like everyday is my birthday (play Skywalker by Miguel).

Here's some things I want to note and/or remember for myself:

F R E E D O M

I guess for the past 3 months I have been applying the new lessons I've learned since 2020 into my life (Backtrack to 2020-long story short, I have been reprogramming most of what I've learned from my entire life. I was seeking my truth then, I still am now). I'm observing what works for me and what doesn't work. I'm seeing what patterns come up and observing how they came to be. I'm here just observing my LIFE (I'm saying observe a lot lol). I am becoming the observer of my thoughts...& it feels so...nice? I say nice because I now know that my thoughts DO NOT define me. They are apart of me. And I now know that it's ok if these thoughts pop up. If they do not serve me, I will acknowledge them and kindly push them away. I also say "nice" because I feel free. I feel free from something... but if I had to guess, I feel like it's freedom from my mind? (My intuition is telling me yes) BUT...if that were true, it is pretty nuts that I feel relieved. Why am I relieved from my own mind? Hm. Food for thought.

S I G N S

I need to note that the synchronicities are insanity! One right after the other (there is no such thing as coincidence). Divine Timing has definitely been showing me what DIVINE TIMING is. The Angel Numbers have been screaming at me and I can't help but laugh. The seeds I've been planting most of my life are starting to bloom, and I am now only starting to nurture them (better late than never). I'm getting signs and messages through my friends, on my walks, and through my interactions with strangers. This is my life. This is real. And I know others are going through some shit too so know that you are never alone! The universe speaks to you in strange ways.

D R E A M S

Something is telling me to pay attention to my dreams and to start documenting them. I just posted an IG story sharing how I feel like I am becoming consciously aware in my dreams (Lucid Dreaming). Why now? What shifted? Because most of my life, I've been observing like I was watching a movie. Just going with the motions, No say on what I should do, or what I should say. Just there. Why are dreams important? I mean I can give you a surface-level answer, but I would love to dive a little deeper. I'll get back to this later.

S E L F D I S C I P L I N E

This is new to me. Literally like 2 months in of practicing self-discipline and it's tough yall lol. I don't have much to report here, but note that I am experimenting with my daily habits and work. (Also note that I can do more in my daily life. I'm not sure what that consists of just yet, but I will figure it out.)

W O R D S

Here are some words/phrases that come to mind at the moment:

• It always comes back to self

• self-love

• unity

• discernment

• symbols

• you leave yourself hints. find them

• knowledge is power

• listen to your body

• trust yourself

• stay hydrated

• communicate more

• watch how you react

2022,

You have been good to me. You have taught me many valuable lessons. You have brought me to some of the lowest points of my life, but I persevered and came back on top. I finally see me. I finally chose me.

I am ready to continue doing this work.

Thank You,

• L