training myself to swerve

I just sent a love note to my incredible email fam…
a little reminder to pause and look back at the road we took to get here. Like actually look. Not just glance over our shoulder and keep spiraling forward, but stop, breathe, and honor the messy, magical, sometimes-what-the-hell route that shaped us.

It’s a reminder I need too, because honestly? I still get caught up in the simulation of life. You know the one where everyone’s achieving, posting, upgrading, “glowing up” in 0.5 seconds… and you start wondering if you’re stuck in some side quest with no map.

But lately, I’ve been soaking in my own creative juice. Just swimming in it & floating. Dancing. Scribbling ideas in journals and figuring out which ones to pursue, which ones to pause, and which ones to lovingly let go. I’ve been organizing my creative chaos and honestly? I’m soooo dang proud of me. I’ve been showing up for my vision in ways I never used to.

AND THEN GUESS WHAT HAPPENED…**eyeroll**

the sneaky little thought of “You’re Not Doing Enough!” came through. again.

The sneaky one that always whispers when you’re feeling good.
Just raining on my parade, lol.

But this time, I caught it. I swerved.

I didn’t spiral. I didn’t unpack and stay there. I took the exit ramp and chose a different direction. This is the innerwork. The work I love showing up for.

Because I’ve realized something:
These thoughts might always be a part of me. The doubt. The self-sabotage. The inner troll that says “who do you think you are?”

Will they ever go away completely?
I don’t know. I have my whole life to find out.

But if they don’t go away, I’ve made peace with that too.
Because now I know I can pivot. I can re-route. I can notice the intrusive thought and still choose to water the dream. That’s power.

And look….it wasn’t always like this. My mental health in my 20s? Let’s just say… it was giving haunted house vibes.

But somehow, I built resilience. Through tears, fear, messy journaling, mirror check-ins, shroom trips, dancing, and deep dives into my inner world. I slowly unhooked myself from the lies. And it’s still uncomfortable sometimes! But that discomfort? That’s proof I’m growing.

So here’s what I’m anchoring into today:
My thoughts don’t define me.
My fear doesn’t get to drive.
And every time I choose curiosity over critique, joy over judgment, trust over tired loops.
I win. 🧠✨🎨

I don’t have all the answers. But I know I am never alone.

This is why I love to write and share my thoughts, because I’m open to these conversations and would love to know what you all are doing out there to stay sane and make your wildest dreams come true!

Now go be kind to yourself today and enjoy your day! :)
love yall.